Wow, I can’t believe it’s been a month since I’ve written. Actually, I can. This whole autumn has been….really something. Movement inside, feeling big inner shifts. Some significant happenings on the outside – our Creating Infinite Possibilities women’s retreat, lawyering on the side for 1 month and what that opened up for me, and exploring new and exciting ways I can work with people. And creating, mapping, visioning, planning what’s coming into being as we move into 2013.
Leaning in. This fall has been process of looking deeply. Looking deeply with clear eyes, an open heart and a desire to connect.
A time of getting real. Asking myself: What do I deeply, truly want? Where am I’m holding back? What matters most when it comes to how I spend my days, my breaths and my life energy?
I’ve been asking many many questions and noticing what questions the universe is asking of me. What’s really working? What’s not? What needs to shift to be in greater alignment with my self, my purpose, my soul, heart, mind and body?
All of it has been deeply transformative & allowing me to see things newly and differently. I feel like a different person than over the summer (and before I got married). It’s oddly wonderful.
But, by all means, it’s not all roses. It’s frustrating, disorienting, confusing. Noticing parts of me that want answers, that want to have it all figured out. And, simultaneously, knowing that there are no answers. Only experiments. Only actions. Only beliefs and patterns and choices and ability to see it differently and feel it differently and do it differently.
Facing things I’ve been unconscious of, or consciously avoiding, has been an eye-opening experience. Seeing them, really, and staying. Not turning away.
I see newly how parts of myself were not working in together in harmony, or even on the same team. My mind not aligned with my heart. My soul and body not communicating effectively. The energy it takes to work against myself in this way, and yearning to start to change that way of doing it.
I am really and truly asking myself what’s going to bring out the best in me, what is being called forth from me now.
I don’t have any answers. I’m intending to do better with what I have and know (and don’t know) now. I am continuing to look deeply. I am continuing to foster natural alignment within myself. I am continuing to gulp and take another step. And for all of that and so much more, I am deeply thankful.
Wild Heart is growing. She’s evolving. She’s taking in sights, sounds, smells and tastes from her environment, noticing what happens and asking important questions. She’s learning and maturing. I am thrilled.
So you’ll see that evolution in this space and on my website in coming weeks and months. I’m awakening to a new experience of myself, my passions, my gifts, my offerings and my joy to share it with others. I am calling forth more of myself than I’ve ever brought forth before.
I can’t wait to share it with you. Naturally, organically and from my heart.
It’s thrilling, and I feel excited anticipation in my stomach. I remind myself to trust. Trust and hold this vision with deep care and love.
p.s. New News! On Wednesday the 28th I will be launching a sweet little treat that I’ve been working on for the holiday season and I can’t wait to share!! My heart is full.